Appreciation

I came to a realization today. A realization of my appreciation towards my girlfriend. It's not that I don't appreciate her. It's that I take for granted everything she does for me especially when it comes to my children. Having been a single father on two seperate occassions I know how overwhelming it can be at times. When you are in a home with both parents you always have that extra hand available to you and you never have the stress of doing everything yourself. At least if both parents are responsible which I hope is the case. When you are single you are responsible for your kids 100% of the time while they are in your care. The only time you really get to yourself is the couple of hours after you put them to bed.

When your a single Dad and your trying to date it can very hard when you don't have any help looking after the kids. If you were anything like I was, then you didn't have a lot of money to go out and meet someone. Nor would you want to spend money on a baby sitter that you don't have. I don't have the luxury of having family around to help me when I need it. I also don't have the help of my sons mother but that is an entirely different topic for a different time. I found myself looking online to meet someone. I ended up meeting a couple women from a couple sites, namely "Plenty of Fish", but it was not something that I took seriously. I really didn't want to meet people online but it was hard if not imporssible to find the time to meet anybody new except through work or friends. But as I have stated in the previous post I did meet that special women through dating online. So I guess things can work if you give them a chance to.

It's hard to give an answer to "What do I love most about her?". I can give many answers but they all become trival when I think to myself "She loves my boys". It doesn't matter what answer I give because when it boils down to the bare bones, it wouldn't work in the end if she didn't love them or at least respect and accept them as a part of my life. She accecpted them into her life just as quickly as she accepted me. She has never treated them poorly or treated them like they don't belong. She knows that as much as I love her my children will always come first and I know that she will never question that.

This all comes back to my appreciation of her. An appreciation that any single father will have when a woman accepts not only him but his children into her life. My children are no responsibility but my own in my home but she helps me in so many ways everyday that I really do take them for granted. She cooks for them, and takes care of them when they are hurt. Above all else she lets me sleep in when she is up and she will look after them.  All I am trying to say is that if you have what I have then you need to go hug that special somone and tell them you love them and that you appreciate everything they do for you. Even if your married you should express this appeciation from time to time because believe me, it's a lot harder by yourself.